Out of our hands

A lot of people woke up this morning very angry and upset...me included. I didn't and still don't understand why America voted the way they did. I went in to work and everyone had the same attitude. We all know the President isn't in control, God is but that is hard to remember sometimes. God knows why this happened and he has a reason for it. Like always we don't know why but one day we will.

It all goes back to my motto of the year..everything happens for a reason. Over the past few weeks a lot has happened in our lives.

 -We found out our daycare that Kelsey started at when she was 1 an Hayden has always been at is closing. After getting over the initial shock I am heartbroken. Me and everyone who went there. Today was Hayden's last day there and it kills me to think he doesn't understand what is happening. Tomorrow his little world is going to turn upside down. I know it is happening for a reason, but why?
- Travis got laid off the day after I found out about the daycare. This is the 2nd time from this company..we are done. We kinda knew to expect it but at the same time it is always hard to accept. He is working a part time job when the guy needs him and collecting unemployment when he can. Another thing that we don't understand why it happened, but in the back of my mind I know there is a reason.
-I found out I have to go to court for the ticket I got from my accident in August. I am terrified. So totally scared. I am praying it all works out and I will just pay my fine and be on my way, but the thought of standing in a court room with the man I hit gives me nightmares...again it is happening for a reason.

 I guess the whole theme of this post is most things is our lives are out of our control. I think that is one of the hardest things about trusting in God completely is letting him be in control. He wants us to trust in him and know that everything will work out and be ok, but we (i) want to keep fighting for control. I hate not knowing what is going to happen or why something is happening. Sometimes it might be better not to know, and I believe if we are meant to know we will find out when the time is right.
I just keep telling myself over and over...everything happens for a reason. God has a plan and I think a big part of that plan is to get us to give control to him and trust in him completely.

I hope everyone has a good night.

I will be back with a update on how Hayden did at his new school and a update on Kelsey soon!

Stress Relief

How do you handle stress??

Do you run, take a bath, scream, clean your house, vent, cry, take a walk??....

I am asking because I have having a hard time finding a stress relief. I used to before kids and a husband ride horses all. the time. and if I had a bad day I could go spend a couple hours with the horses, even if I wasn't riding just hanging out. I always felt so much better when I left, riding helps me clear my head.. At least until I have to face reality again.

I haven't been able to ride like that in a couple years and while I know I will do it again I need something else in the meantime. I don't get much any alone time anymore, unless it is 10pm. I am not much of a runner so I don't find that as a relief more of a hassle. I can walk until I fall over but that doesn't do much anymore. Cleaning usually works but with 2 small kids and a husband I clean really well and in 10 minutes it looks awful again.

So I am asking you readers...(If I have any) to let me in on how you relieve your stress or what you do to clear your head?

Please share.

If this post makes no sense I am sorry. There is so much in my head right now that I am all over the place. I am going to try to start blogging more to help me. I am praying it doesn't turn into a complain fest!

Stress

Why do we as "adults" stress over everything? I just don't get it. If I am not stressed about money, then it is the kids or the dog or the house or cars. It is always something! I have decided that I can't live without some kind of stress in my life. It just will not happen. If there is ever a day that I can...I will be so freakin happy.

I have learned that stress hurts my marriage ....I hate fighting but I keep all my emotions/ problems all balled up and when I get upset, get ready because I am about to explode. I feel bad for Travis because this has happened more that I would like recently.

I know I have to put everything into God's hands and let him be in control, but o goodness that is so hard! I am getting better knowing he will provide and everything happens because he wants it to. I just wish I knew why things happened the way they do...but I think that is his secret, and we will find out one day.

I am going home tonight and I am going to attempt to not stress about anything. I find it really funny. I am having a party at my house tomorrow night and all I have done is set out my candles...since I am selling them. I am going to be determined though. I will let yall know how it goes.